Thursday, 29 October 2009

learn how to fly

When you get to the end of all the light you know and it's time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: either you will be given something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly

Edward Teller


I've learned a new lesson of life.
it began with something that my friend called "relaxation time".
well, i think it was not really "relaxation" thing, it's a bit more "release your deepest-pain" thing.

like it or not, we will always face it. the problem is "could you handle it?".

I always think that i will keep my super-duper-deepest-pain alone, forever. it bloody hurts. but i just don't wanna make others feel sorry for me, and i believe that we all have our own "deepest-pain".
every person has a different kind of pain. it depends on your childhood, your past, and your background. and we -human- are really genius on how we cover our "pain". a-ha! I'm one of that kind of person. you may know me as a very energetic-expressive-lots of laughs-happy person. yeah! i do have a big pain in my life, but i never want to think or recall it.

well, you have to try to think that every moment of your life, either it makes you hurt, or happy, it came for a reason. you are not the only person who has a "deep-hole" in your life. let it makes you stronger, ready to face the world, ready to be a part of the world.

let the rain ease your pain fellas. then you will be ready to fly.



Tuesday, 27 October 2009

to whom it may concern

Marriage is not about age; it's about finding the right person. "

Sophia Bush

first of all, please note that i just want to give an opinion, "my from-the-deepest-of-my-heart-kind-of opinion" in my point of view about this marriage thing, so no offense for anyone who wants to get married at young age. ok.

here we go,

being 20 something is bloody hard! yeah, it's the time when you will hear words "marriage" many times, over and oveeeer again.

well, marriage.
marriage is a HUGE STEP of your life. i mean, once u get married, it will last for forever. u have to work for it.
yeah. FOREVER. so u have to think of it zillion times, at least u need to "truly" believed and have faith in your husband-to-be.
Getting married at young age, some of you maybe ever think about it. it's your choice. i don't say that getting married in young age is bad for you, but my questions in my mind are " are you really mean it? are you prepared for this?", come on, it is not like you're having a bad relationship , and suddenly you can ditched everything up, find another man, and start again from the beginning, and live happily ever after. please, it's not a fairytale, everything is not as perfect as in the movie, guys!

hmm. actually, i'm not a big fan of this "getting married in young age", so it's very disturbing when i came to family gathering and all they could say just "where is your boyfriend? when will you get married?" . PLEASE! I'M 20, too young to think about MARRIAGE.
well, my role model [read: mum] was 30, when she decided to get married. and she still can be my bestfriend and my mother at the same time (i mean most of people think that married in a young age can make you have a perfect amity with your kids).
but in fact, with their "we don't have anything in common anymore" reason, which very cliché for me, many of young couples nowadays will end up in divorces. as you've seen in tv, or read in magazines, there are lots and lots and loots of divorces. God! Marriage is not to have anything in common, for Heaven's sake! everybody is different! it's about how you make those differences blend together, with share, respect each other, and struggle together! you have to fight for it!

so, for me, i really love sophia bush's quote above, that "Marriage is not about age; it's about finding the right person", who cares if i will end up married at my 20-ish 30-ish, 40-ish, whatsoever. what's to hurry? i need to fulfil my dreams, i want to travel around the world, i want to do crazy things, i want to enjoy my life, i want to be independent, have a nice career, live in my own apartment - with or without a man - . a-ha!

but once again, it's about your choice, your preparation, your thoughts, and your time. i believe that everything in ourlives will happen for a reason.
so guys, marriage is not something to worry about. you'll find a man in a right time. sit back and relax. enjoy your time.

from the deepest of my heart,


Monday, 26 October 2009

you just fall, just fall

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's
called falling in love, because you don't force
yourself to fall, you just fall.

~ Unknown ~


i can't believe i bring this up!

ok. now. let's talk about LOVE and RELATIONSHIP

haha. it's not my favorite things to share actually, but i think i need to make this clear! hhahaha

OK. well, it's been 4 years I haven't in any of relationships, and also it has been FOUR YEARS, everybody seems pretty concern about it! puh-lease, i just need a break. long-term break to enjoy my life. my own life!

hmm. I'm not afraid with a commitment, but i think i haven't got a right man to work together in a relationship! the truth is I love to be loved, but I DON'T LIKE TO BE CHANGED. if i wanna change my life, then I'll do it by myself, not by somebody who doesn't know me at all and suddenly wants to turn my life upside-down!

"someday", I'll find a RIGHT MAN, in a RIGHT PLACE, and in a RIGHT TIME. and i think I'll be ready for that "moment". i just fall, just fall.

for now, let it be this way, I'm single, and HAPPY.

all the love,


Thursday, 22 October 2009

another rainy day

“Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass… it’s about learning how to dance in the rain!”
–Vivian Greene

18.30 polda metro, sudirman.
it started to rain, suddenly i thought "Great, it will take a looonggg time to catch home"
sebetulnya, gw gak terlalu anti-hujan, tapi ada kalanya hujan membuat waktu berasa sangaaaaat panjang! dan ini terjadi disaat gw harus bisa mengefisiensikan waktu dengan baik.
dan gw memutuskan untuk tidur.

20.30 fatmawati, jakarta
M A C E T T O T A L.

21.00 fly over, ciputat, tangerang
banjir. kesaaal banget, rasanya sangaaat gak adil, orang2 sepertinya gak perlu sampai seperti gw, yang butuh berjam-jam untuk sampai di rumah, gak perlu susah-susah jalan jauuuh cuma untuk PULANG.
tapi entah, tiba-tiba gw mulai perhatiin orang-orang sekitar. ekspresi mereka beda-beda, mereka datang dari latar belakang yang berbeda, punya masalah yang berbeda, seketika itu juga gw merasa sangat egois, gak bersyukur, cuma bisa ngeluh.
gw uda sangaaat diberkati dengan "keluar kampus belum hujan, langsung dapat bis, dapat tempat duduk yg nyaman, gak kepanasan, gak keujanan" dan gw masih aja kesel sendiri.

22.00 home

terima kasih hujan.


Wednesday, 21 October 2009

morning tea

The moment when you first wake up in the morning is the most wonderful of the twenty-four hours. No matter how weary or dreary you may feel, you possess the certainty that, during the day that lies before you, absolutely anything may happen. And the fact that it practically always doesn't, matters not a jot. The possibility is always there.
~Monica Baldwin

today is the beginning of a new day!!!
banyak sekali yang harus dikerjakan hari ini, rasanya 24 jam sehari itu gak cukup. pernah gak si kalian berasa kalo ini CUKUUP! gak sanggup lagi kerjain tugas, berangkat pagi disaat orang-orang masih terlelap, kembali ketemu macetnya Jakarta, kembali menempuh perjalanan jauh dan lama. setiap bangun pagi, gw selalu merasa "CUKUUP! I'VE HAD ENOUGH! Capek banget rasanya untuk kembali memulai aktivitas!", dan seperti biasa superwoman di sebelah gw akan bilang "morning dear, mommy kerja dulu yaa! kamu semangat ya! tuhan berkati!", huff!! serasa PULUHAN KILO DI ATAS KEPALA GW GAK BERASA APA2!!
seneng banget rasanya punya ibu sekaligus sahabat, she's my everything! hehehhe. *melankolis banget!
intinyaa. yaah, kembali gw bakal berpikir "yaudalah, jalanin ajaa, toh hari ini gw bakal ketemu hal-hal baru lagi, ketemu orang baru lagi, jangan dipikirin jauhnya, capeknya, karena semakin dipikir akan semakin berasa capek."


semangat kawans!


Tuesday, 20 October 2009

Greetings from Venus

"The beginning is the most important part of the work"

Here we are.
It takes 48hours for me to begin this blog! Geez, it's hard! hahahah.
I'm not a kind of person who loves to write. yap! gw suka baca, tapi bukan tipe orang yang pandai merangkai kata-kata. Kenapa sampai bisa 2 hari buat mulai blog ini, karena gw sangat percaya pada first impression! because you'll never get a second chance to make a first impression, right?
So, this is it! I'll start with something so simple, Greetings from Venus.